Ever since we are young we get this crushing feeling from inside like all my organs were falling into a spiral into some dark hole somewhere in the pit of your stomach and would disappear any moment.. Well as i got older i realized that's what it was i was having a crush on someone. I miss that now. I wonder how come i don't crush that easily now. A Few years back it used to come and go like the clouds in the sky perhaps. Come without reason n go before you knew it had ever been there.
A guy who lived opposite my house, My mech professor, A cute friend, The president of CSI ...crazy stuff and these are the only ones i can maybe remember something bout .. Many more gone in a day or in an hour...And at that time no one else could be more mesmerizing than the one you're crushing on..No one seemed more right. more handsome... and sometimes maybe just the personality ... it just makes you appreciate them.
Well if not anything else they at least made me confident about one thing. That i was straight. And of all these people when i see them now, i feel like i am the only sane person left in this world... and what the hell was i thinking back then...
The guy in in the opposite balcony he went to London.. thought my world almost crashed.. but then i realized what a weirdo he was... now when i think bout what i liked in him ...it was probably the way he stammered. :P (OK now i think i am the weirdo ) .... Mech proff .. holy god.. why and how... he was the strictest prof ever and maybe the most crazy one too.. he was bald and married... i haven't still figured out that one ... probably cause i was good at mechanics... let cute friends remain cute friends...they are better that way... and CSI well you can understand. he was smart and 'in demand' in college and plus he dint mind talking to me.. though i never figured out why he would lie to me about his company name. and how 'crushed' was i to think 'paint cannon' was actually a name someone could give their company... i mean what was i thinking... anyways.. guess i just dint want to tell him how stupid it was.. people call their company 'apple' and 'mango' so i wasn't totally insane in thinking that could be a name ....anyways... well now when i realize he lied to me. it kinda irritates me.... May back then i shouldn't have listened to him ... just given him my point of view... well that's another lesson you got to mature to learn about ...
Sometime i probably feel i should have gone or should go and speak to these people as i would now.. but then again maybe let them remain the crazy chapters in my life that dint ever have any 'The Ends' to them.
